I got asked the famous question recently "so Sandra why on earth are you single?" sad stuff hey, lol an I once again had to explain myself. I always have a bunch of reasons but lucky for me, I found something that just took SOME of the words right out of my mouth. I know many will relate with it just as I have, I even feel like there's absolutely no need to add on to it.
"I Thee Wed
It’s not often I find myself wanting a boyfriend. Truly. That’s not to say I don’t. That’s also not bragging. It is the result of good and bad things.
-I don’t want to dwell on desiring things I don’t have. My life is completely unique from everyone else’s. I don’t need to be jealous of what is theirs. This is mine. I will rejoice and be glad in it. That mindset is good, I believe.
-"Complaining is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn’t get you anywhere."
-I can’t afford the daydreaming. I see a cute boy, I want a cute boy, I imagine life with a cute boy —- oh wait, I only have my past to refer to. That means I start thinking of my past. I have plenty of memories from my past that satisfies my flesh, then fills me with guilt, and leaves me wanting more. I don’t need that painful cycle and I try hard to switch gears when that starts.
-I don’t know what to expect. God created us to be man & woman. Getting married is not guaranteed but statistically likely. That’s a hard concept to wrap my mind around. Plus a lot of the time I suck at being content with God as my main man. Cause I’m human. But I’m getting better at it.
-I’ve taken pride in being single. This is a gift of freedom, flexibility of where I live and what ministries I involved myself in. I’ve turned it into my right not to get attached. “God please leave me single because I’m afraid of commitment but I’m going to cover that up and flaunt it as independence." That’s my attitude some days… if you didn’t get that.
-I don’t want to physically feel that pain of wanting something. I honestly cringe at the thought anyone would cry over being single. Only because I’m a few life events from doing just that. We desire companionship. God knows that and did it on purpose. It doesn’t surprise him when I say I would like to find someone so why do I hide it?"-Angela Grace
Needless to say, every Ruth has a Boaz, so to my fellow single ladies, pity parties are for losers OK, go out there, paint all your toe nails a different color and embrace being single. don't despair. don't beat yourself up for all your failed attempts, oooooh the way breakups used to stress me, I recall even loosing weight once because I felt like such a failure (hey I am a woman, don't give me that look) lol.
I love you.
xoxo
reading this again and again aaaaaand again!!!!
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